Forever

"Never says forever, for nothing stays ever...
Love, beauty fades...living or non-living, later or soon...dies"

Sana lahat ng bagay sa mundo lalo na yung mga magaganda't mabubuti ay maging forever. Bakit kaya some good things never last?
Ewan ko ba...sadya yatang ganito ang buhay na gusto ng Diyos para sa atin...isang buhay na punong-puno ng katagang PAGBABAGO....

Parang tayo noon...masaya. Hindi ko maipaliwanag ang happiness na naramdaman ko noon, noong tayo pa ang mag-bestfriend. Pinagtagpo tayo ng pareho nating pangarap...ang musika. Hilig ko ang pagkanta habang ikaw naman ay nag-gigitara. Wala na akong mahihiling pa noon dahil nagkaroon ako ng kaibigang handang dumamay sa bawat segundo ng aking buhay. Studies, love, personal problems...parang andaling i-solve pag kasama ka. Tawag nga sa atin noon kambal-tuko dahil halos hindi na tayo naghihiwalay. Lagi naten sinasabi "all for one, one for all" dahil lahat ng meron ka, meron din ako at lahat ng meron ako, meron ka rin. Kulang na nga lang magkapalitan tayo ng mukha dahil ultimo bag, sapatos, kulay ng damit pareho tayo. Naalala ko pa pati crush pareho tayo tapos ikaw ang niligawan. But i accepted it kase that's what friends are for. Pero nakonsensya ka kaya binasted mo agad. Kaya happy tayo uli.

Kaya lang akala ko forever na tayong magiging magkaibigan. May ibang plano pala ang Diyos para sa atin....kase ngayon, wala kana...iniwan mo na ako. Akala ko sapat ang pagmamahal para magpatawad at maisalba ang pagkakaibigan...hindi pala dahil napakahirap para sayo ang magpatawad...ni hindi mo rin ako binigyan ng pagkakataon na magpaliwanag. Hindi kita masisisi. Hanggang ngayon dala ko parin ang bigat sa dibdib sa pagkawala mo. Alam ko ito ang kapalit ng nagawa ko at naiintindiha kita. Noon pa man alam ko na posibleng mangyari ito pero hindi ko napaghandaan. Ngayon, nabubuhay na lang ako kasama ang mga alaala mo...isang kwento ng masayang pagkakaibigan...mga alaalang puno ng pagmamahal, kabiguan at aral na ibabahagi ko sa mga magiging anak ko.

Ang pagkakaibigan naten noon ay parang isang bulaklak. Gaano man ito kaganda at kakulay, pag nagtagal, kumukupas din at namamatay. Ang friendship gaano man katotoo, darating din ang oras na magkakahiwalay to face each others life. Ngayon, malungkot man ako sa pagkawala mo, alam ko hindi parin ako nag-iisa dahil may isang laging nasa tabi ko at handang magpatawad sa mga taong nais bumangon sa pagkakadapa...walang iba kundi si God. He will be our only bestfriend...FOREVER.

Senti.....

"It seems the ones we love the most

are always the ones we hurt the most...

I know sometimes i say or do

the wrong thing at the wrong time.

I never intend to hurt you but sometimes

i know i do....."

If You Don't Love a Person

If you dont love a person, never hold her hand

You'll just confuse her and grind her heart like a sand

If you dont love a person, never say sweet things

You'll just make her believe that in your heart there is something

If you dont love a person, never say I LOVE YOU

You'll just make her wonder if what you said is true

If you dont love a person but you do have a heart,

never do these things, you'll just tear her apart

If you dont love a person never act as if you do

I have learned my lesson and I hope you will too.

Filipino's Pride

Pansamantalang kalimutan ang issue about Desperate Housewives dahil isang linggo lang ang nakaraan ng muling nangibabaw ang Filipino sa larangan ng boxing...Ano kaya kung ipasuntok na lang naten kay Paquiao ang writer ng Desperate Housewives? Opinyon lang po =)



Cutie Jairus




I first saw this cute local child actor in Super Inggo where he played the role of Pareng Jomar (Pareng Budong's bestfriend). He's so cute and talented. Actually mas gusto ko pa sya kesa sa bidang bata don. He's so natural when it comes to acting and the way he deliver his lines. Kelan lang napanood naten sya as the young Vhong Navarro in Lastikman, the new fantaserye in ABS CBN. Sana nga hindi na lang lumaki si lastikman =). Sana lang mabigyan pa sya ng maraming magagandang roles ng ABS. Hay, nakakatuwa first time kong maging fan ng isang batang artista =) Who knows, he might be the next John Lloyd Cruz or Piolo Pacual diba? =)

images by YAHOO and Jairus Alliance Website

Everyday I Die a Little

I’m afraid of my life now. For the past five years I've been living in my own world where there's no time...full of fantasies, full of dreams...dream..dream..dream..But every dream has an end and I have to wake up and face the reality. I’ve been on a deep sleep and woke up having nothing but a dream…no career, no direction, no bright future ahead…I even lost the only bestfriend I have. Now I just realized the value of time. I don’t know where to go. For how many times I tried to stand up and have a new start but things doesn’t work the way I wanted to. Why is this happening to me? Am I doomed to fail? Am I born to be a dolt? A loser? I’m so lost. I don’t even know my worth and my purpose in life. I’m afraid that one day no one will look after me even my family. I don’t know but sometimes, they make me feel like I’m the less important member of the family. My heart now is full of hatred and sadness. I don’t like to feel this way but I can’t find any reason to be happy. I’m having a hard time dealing not only with my own self but with my family as well. I know I’m just being too sensitive because of my present situation and also suffering from middle child syndrome. Life is so hard for me now…I feel so alone…so alone…

Open letter to Heaven

dear God,

I know inspite of all that's happening to me, i know you never left my side and i am always showered with your undying love and you're always there to forgive me and catch me everytime i fall. Lord, just let me know the purpose of all my struggles. I know, there's always a reason behind all those fears and tears that i shed. May you give me wisdom to understand the things i cannot change...give me strength that will push me to go on and never give up the fight...help me find my way...you know how much i strive. I dont really want to give up...i dont want to live this kind of life forever. Please take away all my fears, my anger, my sorrow and heal my mind and touch my heart. Lord, help me live my life worth living...make me an instrument to inspire others so that i could bring back to you all the glory.

Amen